Sunday, 13 June 2010

Holiday

Holiday started since 4th June, Friday, which was my last day of exam. Been kinda busy last week, going out and stuff:

1. On 6th (Sunday), went out with Liwen, Xinyi, Jacquelyne, Cindy, Keah Yee and co to celebrate Xinyi's birthday in Excapade (which Xinyi sendiri belanja). And I bought couple of books AFTER GOD KNOWS HOW LONG!!! I bought um... Septimus Heap Book One: Magyk; Book Two: Flyte by Angie Sage, as well as Percy Jackson and the Last Olympian by Rick Riordan (did I get the names right?). All three books are hardcover~ ^^ I also bought You're Beautiful, Goong and Coffee Prince DVDs. Which cost me almost 100 bucks...

2. On 7th, go Cindy's house as a kinda mini celebration of Xinyi's birthday (honestly, I think it's just an excuse to karaoke LOL). I brought spaghetti for them, Liwen bought mee hoon. Hehehe, they complimented Mom's cooking! ^^ Ahh, spaghetti... *drools* I love Mom's food~ They're the best! XD But of course, I may be biased :P

3. On Thursday, 10th June, went out with Wern to Mall and we watched Prince of Persia (which was awesome, btw). And bought some more books LOL! Septimus Heap Book Three: Physik; Book Four: Queste; Book Five: Syren; (ALL HARDCOVER!!!) and Ten Things I Love About You by Julia Quinn (which was awesome btw). I bought two of the books from Best Eastern (the branch in Mall) and another two in Booker (Gadong branch). Quite happy on this day too :P Ten Things I Love About You is awesome~ Really nice! Sebastian Grey is another addition to my list of favourite Julia Quinn heros. Other heros include Anthony Bridgerton, Colin Bridgerton and Sir Harry Valentine. I shall write a review on this book... as well as a review on What Happens in London (another personal favourite of mine ^^).

4. Then on Saturday, 12th June, which was yesterday, me, Ying, and Wern went to Nic's house to... uh... play neopets and eat sand! LOL! I was kinda disappointed though. We didn't get to see the results together. =/ (STUPID TNT!!! TILL NOW STILL DON'T WANT TO RELEASE THE RESULTS =.=) Other than that slight disappointment, I'm happy to see Ying and Nic (and Wern again of course) after so long.

Monday, 31 May 2010

Last day of May

Woo, been so busy these days... (kinda) Anyways, I've finished most of my papers, now left 2 more AS papers: Accounting Paper 1 (MCQ) and Business Studies Paper 2 (Data Response). Other than that, it feels like holiday right now. I really could care less of studying hard for this June AS... since most of my papers are screwed already. Sigh...

Now, I'm kinda going back to DBSK... which is not a good thing since they're going through lawsuit and seems like they're gonna disband any time soon, which in turn will give me heartache (GAHHHHH~ T_T). Plus, most of them are doing solo works, acting in dramas. And Micky's doing a Korean drama now. I'm quite interested in this drama, since the plot sounds interesting... BUT!!! I CAN'T BEAR TO SEE MICKY KISSING WITH THE MAIN GIRL, WHOEVER SHE IS!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! BUT THEN I REALLY WANT TO WATCH THIS DRAMA, EXCEPT FOR ANY ROMANTIC SCENE!!! AIYAHHHHHHH!!!! Good thing Xiah Junsu didn't act in a drama...

I really want DBSK to be together forever... like Shinhwa. :(

~ Always Keep The Faith ~

=/

Thursday, 29 April 2010

It's been so long again...

AS exam is just around the corner (less than two weeks). AND I HAVEN'T EVEN START MY MATHS P1 REVISION!!! FUCK!!! God, I'm so regretful now. T_T Hopefully I'll start doing some past year today... @_@

Since I'm feeling lazy, I'm just gonna post lyrics.

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Don't Let Me Stop You by Kelly Clarkson

I used to be a little bit shy, I kept my deepest feelings inside
Speaking up to you about my emotions has always been hard
But this just can't wait, tonight I feel a little bit brave
So I won't let one more day pass without you explaining what we are

This is gonna sound kind of silly but I couldn't help but notice
The last time you kissed me you kept both eyes open
Baby can you tell me what does that mean?
If you're looking over your shoulder then you don't need to be with me
And I don't need to hold on

Don't let me stop you from doing what you wanna do
You don't wanna stick, trust me it's cool, take no chance, get over you
No, no don't let me stop you, if you wanna leave baby you can leave
Just don't pretend that you're into me if it ain't true
No don't let me stop you

I'm out of things I can take, gotta high threshold for pain
Let's get one thing straight I'm not down to share you with anyone
If that's not what you're looking for, nice knowing you but there's the door
'Cause I know I can find someone who give me what I want

This is gonna sound kind of silly
If you're looking over your shoulder then you don't need to be with me
And I don't need to hold on

Don't let me stop you from doing what you wanna do
You don't wanna stick, trust me it's cool, take no chance, get over you
No, no, don't let me stop you, if you wanna leave baby you can leave
Just don't pretend that you're into me if it ain't true
No don't let me stop you

Even if I end up broken hearted I won't lie
I don't wanna hear goodbye but either way I'll be alright

Don't let me stop you from doing what you wanna do
You don't wanna stick, trust me it's cool, take no chance, get over you
No, no, don't let me stop you, if you wanna leave baby you can leave
Just don't pretend that you're into me if it ain't true
No don't let me stop you

Don't let me stop you from doing what you wanna do
You don't wanna stick, trust me it's cool, take no chance, get over you
No, no, don't let me stop you, if you wanna leave baby you can leave
Just don't pretend that you're into me if it ain't true
No don't let me stop you

Tuesday, 23 March 2010

Monday's Child

Monday's child is fair of face,
Tuesday's child is full of grace,
Wednesday's child is full of woe,
Thursday's child has far to go,
Friday's child is loving and giving,
Saturday's child works hard for a living,
But the child who is born on the Sabbath Day
Is bonny and blithe and good and gay.


I'm born on a Saturday~ Hmm...

Monday, 22 March 2010

First term holiday of 2010

My holiday started since last Friday, which was the 19th of March, Friday. For three days straight, I did not study or touch my school books at all. Not sure if I'm able to study today though. I have very bad sleeping pattern now. -_- It's been soooooooooo long since I had a proper, normal sleep. I always slept at evening (the time varies, but usually between 7pm - 9pm) and woke up in the early morning (depending on the time I started sleeping, usually around late 11pm - 4am-ish). Hopefully I can cure this odd pattern. I have not slept on my bed since... A LONG TIME!!! I only slept at the bottom area, not the proper bed. Argh!!! T_T Why do I love to sleep... It must have been the bottom bed fault!!! By laying down or sitting on it, I get this sleepy feeling. :(

Anyways, though it's my holiday, I have extra class. *stares at the sky, heaving a long sigh* Thank God that it's only for 3 days, and from 10am till 11.30am. It's my Business extra class. Today's the first day. And something stupid had happened. -.- It's so stupid that I can't believe it seriously happened. So my class started at 10, right? I asked my dad to come at 9.30 coz I'm a punctual person (99% of the time) and I hate to be late. In my mind:

late to arrive at school = late to class = late to enter the (in this case, my extra class is held in the conference room) conference room = teacher start revision already and I might missed out some stuff = other students will stare at me like I'm some kind of freak.

The last reason is the most important reasons on why I hate to be late for class. Of course, the missing out on what teacher had said is important too... So yeah, my dad did arrived at 9.30, but then he needed to do some other stuff, and resulted in bringing me when my house clocks striked at 9.50ish am. -_-

I was not pleased at all.

I kept on staring at the Buddha patung thing (I have no idea what to call it, and I feel like I'm being disrespectful to it now ._.) on my dad's um... prayer area, basically Buddhist stuff, and was talking to the patung (mind you, I didn't talk to it out loud, just in my mind), asking it whether I'm gonna be late for class. Obviously, He didn't answer me. Then I started to pace around the living room, getting increasingly annoyed. And I started slamming doors to vent out some of my frustration. The minute-hand kept on moving, and my dad was still not done yet. All the feeling of frustration and annoyance just formed into a big ball inside of me, then at nearly 9.50am, tears welled up. Since I can't shout out loud my anger (since my mom will question me non-stop), it turned into tears of frustration. -_- Then dad finally came out and I went down outside myself, without answering his questions. And he got annoyed since I'm not answering him (it's a sign of rudeness, not answering my parents). Then he turned and looked at my face, and knew that I had been crying (oh please, I've only been crying for like what... 30 sec =.= ... it's the red and swollen eyes that took a much longer time to disappear, and flushed face too). Then he got pissed off (-_-) and said something how I'm gonna be 18 soon, yet I'm so childish or immature (he didn't said any of those words but I knew he was thinking about it). So I spent my time in the car staring outside at the trees and greenery (is there such word) and sniffing pathetically. And now dad's not talking to me (go figure). Which is so fucking unfair. I did ended up late for my class. -________-

I do realise that the crying part is absolutely immature. Still, not like I can curse out loud at home. Since I can't voice out, yet the anger wanted to release itself, it went to the alternative way. Instead of through my throat and voice-box, it went to the eye-system and form some water there (with a dash of salt) and stationed itself at the brim of the eyes, then proceeded to flow down like a waterfall.

When I arrived home at almost noon, since my dad's pissed at me, I cried again (discreetly of course). Cozzzzz!!! It's so unfair!!! Am I not allowed to cry at all? =.= Coz of the unfairness, I cried in my room. Thankfully, I took my lunch on my plate before the tears spilled, and I was in the safe zone that is known as my room. The tears kept flowing but after one bite of my food, the tears stopped. Like, literally stopped. Then I calmed down a lot more and ate my lunch. Lol. Food always stopped my tears. Worked all the time. XD

Enough about this stupid thing.

I wanna talk about my conditioner. I love my conditioner. The conditioner I used is Cream Silk. I've been using the blue one (reCONSTRUCT) for these recent months, and yesterday used a new one, which is the purple one (reGENERATE). The first time I used conditioner was the purple ones. And when I used it yesterday, the smell is soooooo nostalgic. *Sigh happily* It reminds me of something during the early times of my conditioner-usage. The smell is still found on my hair, even though I didn't use it today. ^^ This is absolutely awesome.

Ok, so the paragraph above was kinda out of the blue and weird...

http://www.nytimes.com/2010/03/21/fashion/21GenB.html?pagewanted=2

What a lovely article. LOOKED AT THE FREAKING AMOUNT OF BOOKS STAKING UP ON THE DESK!!!

I finally started to watch my Nodame Cantabile live action drama DVD last week (the time I wanted to watch it was the time when I finally tore off the plastic). And watching a couple of ep reminds me WHY I WANTED TO BUY THE FREAKING DVD LAST LAST YEAR IN THE FIRST PLACE! GOODNESS, I CAN'T BELIEVE I ONLY WATCHED THE DVD LAST WEEK, whereas in reality, I bought the DVD for a long time liao... I think. Anyways, I didn't watch finish (though I've already watched most of the latter part of the ep in tv before) coz I wanted to relish the moment. (LOL) I want to read the manga first (good thing it's completed already) then next time I go to Mall I will buy the anime. After (hopefully) finishing my homeworks, revisions, studying and cleaning my room, I shall watch the drama, plus the two special ep, on Sat evening or Sun. SAVE THE BEST FOR LAST XD I better start studying now!

Thursday, 4 March 2010

Disappointment...

I'm really disappointed in 2PM. Actually, my feelings toward the 6 members are a mixture of hatred, anger, disappointment and sadness. They absolutely abandoned Jay... it's apparent in the conference. When I first read numerous fan accounts of the conference, I was so upset that I hated the 6 of them, even Wooyoung. Not sure whether the stuff they said are scripted or what, the 2oneday representative said she thinks that the boys were completely earnest in answering the questions, and seemed to be telling their real thoughts, not fake or anything. Well, this representative was there, so she might be right in her judgement. But that just made this whole thing even sadder. If there is no scripts, whatsoever, well... Sigh..

Now that Jay's totally not coming back, I want a formal goodbye from him. I'm hoping he would make a video of some sort to the fans. That would be bittersweet, but it's something I wish...

Friday, 26 February 2010

All Hell breaks loose: 25th February 2010, Thursday

Jay's not coming back to 2PM. It's official now.

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from allkpop:

2PM’s leader Park Jaebeom has quit for good, after it was announced on JYPE’s website on February 25th, Hottests in Korea and from all over the world are in shock.

Excerpts from JYP Entertainment’s online letter:

“On December 22nd, 2009, Jaebeom confessed to Jung Wook representative that he had done something wrong during Again and Again promotions. Apparently, it was far more serious than his MySpace controversy.

The six other members were not notified then as they were busy with year-end activities. On January 3rd, 2010, everyone of us (along with the members) sat down for a discussion and came to an agreement 3 days later that it was no longer possible for Park Jaebeom to continue activities along with 2PM.

We thus decided to terminate our exclusive contract with Jaebeom.”

JYPE stated that Jaebeom’s social impulses were a private matter and will not be revealed. They expressed that it was difficult to reveal the details of Park Jaebeom’s offenders who had intruded into his privacy and posted the comments.

JYPE had planned for Jaebeom’s comeback back in November 2009, with the idea of a return in April 2010, to which Jaebeom himself agreed. The plan was for Jaebeom to return to Korea in the 3rd week of February 2010 and have a press conference before resuming activities with 2PM in April. This comeback news were all kept secret, with the aim of protecting Jaebeom and 2PM. But it has now all become void.

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What a fucking sick joke.

I cannot believe the reason given by JYPE for the catalyst of JYPE terminating Jay's contract. A big mistake done by Jay during Again and Again promotion... I'm thankful that JYPE didn't say Jay has a terminal disease or illness of some kind, but this... Well, I can't accept this reason as well. Quite frankly, I don't think I will ever accept any reasons that was uttered by JYPE. However, back to this supposedly serious mistake. What did Jay do that was very serious? Did he made some girl pregnant and that someone is blackmailing him? Or did he had sex with a female celeb? A female idol?! With all due seriousness, I can't imagine him sexually assaulting someone either, or violating someone too. Did he steal something? Did he steal the company's money? Or... what...? Argh I dunno.

Ok, so let's say this grave mistake is not a lie invented by JYPE, I cannot believe the fact that the 6 members told the company that they agreed Jay can't come back to 2PM. Or let's say they DID reach that particular decision, I ABSOLUTELY DOUBT THEY MADE THE DECISION DURING EARLY JANUARY!!! During the early Jan, the 6 members were on vacation and each members went back to their respective hometowns. There's lotsa Wooyoung fanaccounts, where he was very very very happy back in Busan. They won't be spending their time blissfully if they sealed Jay's fate like that. They're not that heartless. This was one of the evidence that was posted in a thread in 2oneday. Among all the other evidence that sounded pretty plausible, this theory is the one that I absolutely believe in. Who knows, maybe the members only found out during the time the fans found out, which was yesterday? Also, after Jan 3rd, the members have been expressing out their feelings about Jay. Including him in their thanking speeches, even Khun made a statement on Feb 14th in Thailand, that he misses Jay. I cannot believe the date that was given by JYPE. It is very probable that the members themselves don't even know what's going on, or that they only found out about this only VERY recently. Why else would they always stated that they missed Jay or good stuff about Jay? Either they're being used by JYPE and got dragged into this OR the members are very good actors and have been lying to the fans all these times. I'm gonna go with option 1.

Now that the official announcement has been posted, needless to say, fans (Korean and international) are all furious. With good reasons too. They think JYPE is lying (again) which I agreed too. Now, fans are protesting outside of JYPE building and there are bodyguards installed outside the building, for the sake of the safety of the boys and staff. 2PM official fancafe, that has 300K members, are losing members at an alarming rate within few hours after the release of the announcement. As of now, they lose 46 K members already. 2PM official website has crashed. Taec has closed down his cyworld and Junsu has shut down the photo and comment section from public.

Honestly, the whole thing screams "CONSPIRACY!" The date that JYPE has stated in the announcement does not seems right with what really happened. There's a timeline compiled in one thread in 2oneday, and really, that just confirms my suspicions that the members did not have any say in Jay's matter, and that they, like us the fans, truly believed Jay is gonna comeback in the future. Is this why Wooyoung cried yesterday after recording "Win Win"? Is it because he only found out yesterday? Or just stressed up... since the fans are angry and probably blaming him or insulting him for supposedly betraying Jay? Or he is just plainly sad since Jay is like a brother to him and then he has a heavy burden on his shoulders now that the company has revealed Jay's not coming back anymore? Or is it a mixture of all those things? Probably...

I think one of the reasons why fans are so angry and furious (including me) is that JYP has given us false hope. Again and again, they tried to assure the fans "OH! Jay is so gonna come back! Not sure when but he will." Again and again, they broke their own promises, and again and again, they trampled on the fans' feelings.

All I know is, things are gonna get uglier real soon. After all, "hell hath no fury like a woman scorned". Especially tomorrow, at the conference thing between JYPE representatives and fans representatives. And in the bottom of my heart, I know that JYPE had lied (at the very least, IN SOME WAYS) in the official announcement. I sincerely CANNOT accept the dates that they had stated in the announcement. It does not chime in with what really happened in reality. Now I hope nothing bad will happen to the boys and innocent people, and that the people who decided to chuch Jay out and destroyed and crushed all the fans' hopes will receive karma. And hope Jay is safe in Seattle.

AND!

If Jay really didn't wish to come back at all, and that he actually asked JYPE to cook up some sort of excuses for him... if he is really content to be in Seattle, and is content to be a normal people, and not a Korean idol singer, if he is trully happy there... By all means, I will respect his decisions and wish him for the very best. But no matter how JYPE trying to erase Jay's existence, or if I began to accept 6 members 2PM in the future, regardless of all those stuff, Jaebeom will always be a 2PM member in my heart, and the hearts of the fans. If he wishes to come back, I will definitely welcome him.

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Edit no 1:

2oneday has posted a thread speculating about the slave contract. Jay made comments before that talked about the slave contract being offered to him by JYPE. It lasted for 10 years. However, the crucial lines that mentioned about the slave contract have been erased or censored (presumably) by JYPE. 2oneday had screencaped the current state of the comment and another pic of the comment without the censors. Some people think that it was because of these comments that JYPE terminated Jay's comments. And that this was the personal mistake made by Jay... the comments about the slave contract.

And now the company is discussing whether the 6 members will continue their schedules or not. Really, JYPE has just got themselves into deep shit. Their announcement are ill-timed. Now that the other members are going back to variety shows, they released this announcement, and obviously, fans will be furious. They could have released the announcement before they went back to variety shows. Now fans are fucking pissed off. -_-

"fans rushed to the JYPE building and trashed it by throwing mayo, ketchup, and eggs. On the 26th, fans littered the building with ripped up pictures and CD's of the 2PM members and have even put bundles of chrysanthemum flowers at the entrance. (TN: Chrysanthemums and other white flowers signify death in Korea.)"

quote from 2oneday

Ok... now they're getting freaky. They told journalists that without Jaebeom, 2PM is dead, hence the chrysanthemum flowers.

Another quote:

Fans will leave white chrysanthemums at the entrance, explaining, "At the time, we were planning to put red roses in an effort to encourage a positive result to the conference. However, with the recent notification of Jaebum's complete withdrawal, we have changed the flowers to white chrysanthemums."

Hopefully they don't harm the other members, even if they feel betrayed. Fans should keep a clear head. Don't harm my Wooyoung. -_- Harm Taec if they must, but not the other 5 members, especially Wooyoung and Junho.

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Edit no 2:

There's rumours that the managers of 2PM and the 6 members themselves have no idea about JYPE's announcement release yesterday. There's this fan's friend, who is a journalist. The journalist knows one of 2PM's managers and she had to explain to him about the official announcement to the manager.

"After hearing that, the manager was extremely uncomfortable and kept saying that he had never heard anything like this, and that the kids are at their schedules."

quote from 2oneday

another quote from the account:

Summarized, the kids had no idea of the information released today, not even the manager. Wooyoung was at his 'Win Win' recording and Junho, Chansung were at M Countdown with 2AM recording. There are fan accounts stating that they all looked happy and were celebrating 2AM's win.

If they really knew about Jaebum's situation, they could never be like this.

So, one of my theory is correct. The boys are being used.

Saturday, 20 February 2010

A quote by Rainer Maria Rilke

In the deepest hour of the night, confess to yourself that you would die if you were forbidden to write. And look deep into your heart where it spreads its roots, the answer, and ask yourself, must I write?
—Rainer Maria Rilke

Wednesday, 17 February 2010

Happy Chinese New Year!!!

OMG I totally forgot to update with a post dedicating to greet Happy CNY! I'm slacking... surely. -_- Argh, Chinese New Year was on the 14th but I only update today, the 17th!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHH

Anyways, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! 新年快乐,恭喜发财,年年有余,步步高升,学业进步,龙马精神!

May we all have prosperity and luck and good health throughout the whole year! XD

Friday, 5 February 2010

Modified my blog!!! ^_^

I spent almost two hour modifying my blog! Not that I don't like 2PM or anything, but I don't really like the fact that the image of 2PM is my header. -_- I haven't finish modify my blog actually. I'm planning to change the background colour (black is so depressing...). I'm gonna change the music too... or at least make a widget so I can have several songs in a playlist. And I'm gonna put a group pic of 2PM, plus pics of my favourite celebs *ahemahemwooyoungahemahem*. I'm gonna add the book widget thing from Facebook. I think it's called WeRead... though I haven't update the widget for a long time. ^^;; I'm also planning to create a photobucket account so I can upload the image and just use the link from my account, rather than hotlinking other people's images. ._. Hmm, I have plenty of planning eh...

This is really bad though, since I'm not supposed to be here modifying and blogging. -_- I'M SUPPOSED TO STUDY ACCOUNTING, MATHS AND BUSINESS STUDIES!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! Especially Accounting, since tomorrow's the Acct MPR. =_= However, I have this bad feeling... that from the darkest pit of my heart... I'm actually pretty confident that I won't fail this Accounting test... NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! I'M TOO OVER-CONFIDENT! YET I CAN'T HELP MYSELF! ARGHHHHHHHH!!!

I shall update soon. Lol.