My holiday started since last Friday, which was the 19th of March, Friday. For three days straight, I did not study or touch my school books at all. Not sure if I'm able to study today though. I have very bad sleeping pattern now. -_- It's been soooooooooo long since I had a proper, normal sleep. I always slept at evening (the time varies, but usually between 7pm - 9pm) and woke up in the early morning (depending on the time I started sleeping, usually around late 11pm - 4am-ish). Hopefully I can cure this odd pattern. I have not slept on my bed since... A LONG TIME!!! I only slept at the bottom area, not the proper bed. Argh!!! T_T Why do I love to sleep... It must have been the bottom bed fault!!! By laying down or sitting on it, I get this sleepy feeling. :(
Anyways, though it's my holiday, I have extra class. *stares at the sky, heaving a long sigh* Thank God that it's only for 3 days, and from 10am till 11.30am. It's my Business extra class. Today's the first day. And something stupid had happened. -.- It's so stupid that I can't believe it seriously happened. So my class started at 10, right? I asked my dad to come at 9.30 coz I'm a punctual person (99% of the time) and I hate to be late. In my mind:
late to arrive at school = late to class = late to enter the (in this case, my extra class is held in the conference room) conference room = teacher start revision already and I might missed out some stuff = other students will stare at me like I'm some kind of freak.
The last reason is the most important reasons on why I hate to be late for class. Of course, the missing out on what teacher had said is important too... So yeah, my dad did arrived at 9.30, but then he needed to do some other stuff, and resulted in bringing me when my house clocks striked at 9.50ish am. -_-
I was not pleased at all.
I kept on staring at the Buddha patung thing (I have no idea what to call it, and I feel like I'm being disrespectful to it now ._.) on my dad's um... prayer area, basically Buddhist stuff, and was talking to the patung (mind you, I didn't talk to it out loud, just in my mind), asking it whether I'm gonna be late for class. Obviously, He didn't answer me. Then I started to pace around the living room, getting increasingly annoyed. And I started slamming doors to vent out some of my frustration. The minute-hand kept on moving, and my dad was still not done yet. All the feeling of frustration and annoyance just formed into a big ball inside of me, then at nearly 9.50am, tears welled up. Since I can't shout out loud my anger (since my mom will question me non-stop), it turned into tears of frustration. -_- Then dad finally came out and I went down outside myself, without answering his questions. And he got annoyed since I'm not answering him (it's a sign of rudeness, not answering my parents). Then he turned and looked at my face, and knew that I had been crying (oh please, I've only been crying for like what... 30 sec =.= ... it's the red and swollen eyes that took a much longer time to disappear, and flushed face too). Then he got pissed off (-_-) and said something how I'm gonna be 18 soon, yet I'm so childish or immature (he didn't said any of those words but I knew he was thinking about it). So I spent my time in the car staring outside at the trees and greenery (is there such word) and sniffing pathetically. And now dad's not talking to me (go figure). Which is so fucking unfair. I did ended up late for my class. -________-
I do realise that the crying part is absolutely immature. Still, not like I can curse out loud at home. Since I can't voice out, yet the anger wanted to release itself, it went to the alternative way. Instead of through my throat and voice-box, it went to the eye-system and form some water there (with a dash of salt) and stationed itself at the brim of the eyes, then proceeded to flow down like a waterfall.
When I arrived home at almost noon, since my dad's pissed at me, I cried again (discreetly of course). Cozzzzz!!! It's so unfair!!! Am I not allowed to cry at all? =.= Coz of the unfairness, I cried in my room. Thankfully, I took my lunch on my plate before the tears spilled, and I was in the safe zone that is known as my room. The tears kept flowing but after one bite of my food, the tears stopped. Like, literally stopped. Then I calmed down a lot more and ate my lunch. Lol. Food always stopped my tears. Worked all the time. XD
Enough about this stupid thing.
I wanna talk about my conditioner. I love my conditioner. The conditioner I used is Cream Silk. I've been using the blue one (reCONSTRUCT) for these recent months, and yesterday used a new one, which is the purple one (reGENERATE). The first time I used conditioner was the purple ones. And when I used it yesterday, the smell is soooooo nostalgic. *Sigh happily* It reminds me of something during the early times of my conditioner-usage. The smell is still found on my hair, even though I didn't use it today. ^^ This is absolutely awesome.
Ok, so the paragraph above was kinda out of the blue and weird...
http://www.nytimes.com/2010/03/21/fashion/21GenB.html?pagewanted=2
What a lovely article. LOOKED AT THE FREAKING AMOUNT OF BOOKS STAKING UP ON THE DESK!!!
I finally started to watch my Nodame Cantabile live action drama DVD last week (the time I wanted to watch it was the time when I finally tore off the plastic). And watching a couple of ep reminds me WHY I WANTED TO BUY THE FREAKING DVD LAST LAST YEAR IN THE FIRST PLACE! GOODNESS, I CAN'T BELIEVE I ONLY WATCHED THE DVD LAST WEEK, whereas in reality, I bought the DVD for a long time liao... I think. Anyways, I didn't watch finish (though I've already watched most of the latter part of the ep in tv before) coz I wanted to relish the moment. (LOL) I want to read the manga first (good thing it's completed already) then next time I go to Mall I will buy the anime. After (hopefully) finishing my homeworks, revisions, studying and cleaning my room, I shall watch the drama, plus the two special ep, on Sat evening or Sun. SAVE THE BEST FOR LAST XD I better start studying now!
